nicolaus and i got married two years ago today. i'm honestly blown away that it's been two years. it feels like it was yesterday that i woke up surprised at how calm i felt as i got ready for my wedding day. the words wedding and fiance felt so strange coming out of my twenty-year-old mouth. i felt like i should be a lot more nervous for getting married and committing my life to someone but those nerves just never kicked in. don't get me wrong i had a lot of giddy moments - like obsessing over my wedding dress and being sad that i only got to wear it that one day or seeing how our engagement photos turned out or seeing a shiner on my ring finger every time i looked down - but even those things almost felt like an out-of-body experience.

i was always a typical girl when it came to stalking wedding blogs or wedding facebook albums, but i never really spent much time planning out my own. i just thought it would come a lot later in life than at twenty with an 8 week engagement. it was a bit of a whirlwind and i hardly had time to wrap my head around the fact that i was planning my wedding. it all felt a bit surreal and still feels like a bit of a dream. and, yes, to this day i still feel weird saying the word husband and sometimes still call nicolaus my boyfriend...

i guess what i'm getting at is that apart from all that superficial (but really fun) stuff the only thing that felt and still feels real is that i get to be with nicolaus forever. we got married young and we've been growing up together and i feel so so blessed to have him as an anchor in my life. he's there to celebrate the good times with and he's there to get through the bad times with. he's my main support and even though it seems like we met five minutes ago i can't imagine my life without him. here's to the most incredible two years and to a bajillion more! happy anniversary my love :)