Wednesday, March 18, 2015

guess what...

yep, that is a tiny baby growing in my belly!!! and i am so, so happy that is has fiiiinally been long enough to feel comfortable to share it with the world!! it feels like i have been pregnant for about six years, but really it's only been 14 weeks and about 9 weeks of morning sickness. but i am having a hard time remembering life before nausea....morning sickness is real. and has an extremely misleading name. because it's not just in the morning. they should call it all-day-and-gets-worse-at-night sickness. 

basically, what i'm getting at is that it is way harder to be pregnant than i ever imagined. and i have a whole newfound/increased respect and awe for mothers. i just keep thinking, 'this is what women go through to have kids...and they do it more than once?!' and don't even get me started on single mothers. those ladies are the real life superheroes. 

i like to think that i'm a pretty independent person and i love having nicolaus around to share my life with, but i just like to think that i would be okay on my own if that were my situation. but i've never depended on his care and support so much, and i don't know how i could have gotten through the last few months without him. he's been by my side through the unglamorous, vomiting, blubbery meltdowns to hold my hair, or run to the store to buy me sprite and honeydew or just listen while i cry about all the weird changes my body is going through and all of the things i'm terrified for. and even though i know he's sometimes just as exhausted or stressed as i am, he manages to push past his own cranky/grumpy inclinations and is just so sweet to me. and for some reason he still loves me. that boy is a saint. 

so yes, kudos to any women who don't have that same type of support. you must be exceptionally strong, special souls. i am so amazed of their strength and it also makes me a little ashamed to have complained about my situation so much...especially because i do know that it is life's biggest miracle, and such a blessing to even be able to fall pregnant and have a body that is able to grow a little human in it. it is hard. but it's also mind-blowing and incredible.

i cannot believe that just over four years ago, nicolaus was just this boy that i randomly met and now we have this little baby growing that is half him/half me that we get to meet in a few short months! it's something i've thought/dreamed about a lot and i cannot believe it's going to be a reality soon. i cannot wait to smother that baby with sooo many cuddles and kisses.

p.s. my due date is september 17!!

p.p.s. also, i know everyone's pregnancy is different and unique to them and has their own set of ups and downs, but if anyone else out there has a down of bad morning sickness, and has found something that helps, please text/comment/message/email me and tell me about it!! i need all the help i can get!

17 comments:

  1. OH MY GOSH!!! This is so exciting. You are so cute and are gonna be such an awesome mom. Congrats!

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    1. ahhh thank you so much kenze!!! you are so sweet!!

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  2. Congrats! The morning sickness is definitely not fun. I bought those seabands which did help a little bit. I would have done anything to make it stop. I couldn't eat anything except saltines and split pea soup so I feel your pain. At the end of the 1st trimester it was gone and I felt fine. goodluck and I hope you feel better soon!

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    1. thank you!! oh man, so many saltines over the last few months. i'll have to try the split pea soup :) and look into seabands - i've never heard of those! thanks for the tip and i hope i'm the same way and am feeling better soon!!

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  3. Eeeeep! So excited for the two of you :) Congrats!

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  4. Awwwh yay, congratulations!!! Such exciting news for the both of you - I hope the morning sickness eases up! xx

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    1. thank you thank you sweet girl- me too!! :)

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  5. First off congratulations, but second I so feel your pain! I am now 24 weeks pregnant and I had such a hard time with morning (ALL DAY WORSE AT NIGHT) sickness during the first trimester and first little bit of the second also. I tried all the "tricks" I could find online and ended up only finding things that could keep it a bit at bay, no cure all. I also got prescriptions from my doctor. I used diclegis and zofran, which I probably would use if I have another pregnancy. Again, neither were cure-alls that I hoped and kind of expected, but they did help me at least be able to survive and push through my semester of school. I ended up losing almost 10 pounds and so I just got to the point where if anything sounded good to me I would eat it immediately, even if I could just do one bite it was so worth it just to have that one little bit of nutrients. I got a little bit paranoid that my baby wasn't getting enough nutrients so I would try to do prenatals to help him but they made me throw up almost immediately until my doc recommended the vitafusion prenatal gummy vitamins (they have no iron so they are gentler on your stomach) which I could keep down when I took them right before bed (at this point in my pregnancy I have switched over to a different prenatal with iron since I haven't been as sick). I seriously am open to talk whenever about all of this. Pregnancy is soooo hard, and you never realize how difficult it is until you are in it (emotionally, physically, and mentally). There are a lot of huge changes that can be overwhelming and make you feel totally helpless, which is a hard thing to come to terms with as someone who is innately independent. Good luck with everything, hopefully the sickness won't last much longer.

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    1. oh you poor, poor girl! i have days like that, but luckily it hasn't been every single day for me. and i've already switched to taking my prenatals at night, but i didn't know they had gummy ones! i will for sure look into those because that sounds amazing. yes, yes it really is. but thank you so much for the tips!! and i hope you are feeling better now!! :)

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  6. congratulations! you look so cute! ginger ale helped me a lot with "all day" sickness and they magically disappeared at 15 weeks! so hopefully it would be the same for you ;)

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    1. :) thank you!! and i have just recently discovered the amazing of ginger ale/ginger chews/ginger candies and it has helped me a lot too! oh man, i'm glad you're one of the lucky ones and i'm hoping i am too!! thanks again sweet lady!

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  7. So excited for you, Shayla! :) But sorry you've been so sick. That's no fun at all! Just hang in there though and the first trimester will be over before you know it!

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    2. thanks julia!!! and you are right - the weeks are starting to go by quicker! :)

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